Yesterday, was a very important date for me. I lost my best friend, my mom, my go-to-lady! I called her Aunt Faye. She was the absolute best! She taught me so much! It's hard when you loose someone close to you, but how would you feel if the Dr. just said well it's your time, instead of letting God take you? That's what kinda happened with her. She had been sick for a while. About 2 yrs ago, she had to go on dialysis & that's when it started. Then last Oct. the Dr. talked us into putting her on a trek. Worst, mistake you ever done. When she was at the last hospital the Dr. told us there are no hospitals in the state of Texas that will take a patient that is on both, dialysis & a trek. (Well, there is one in San Antonio, but they didn't have a bed for her.) The nearest one was in Ohio or Nevada. She didn't want to leave Texas or her family. You see, she wasn't married all she had was my Dad & my family. Her one biggest fear in life was to die alone.
The Dr. flat out told her that her Medicare had ran out & Aflac wasn't going to pay any longer. How do you become a Dr. & to be able to tell a family that they are giving up on your loved one & that they are pulling the plug on them unless you pay them $1,000+ a day to keep them alive.
Well, so we had to move her that one last time. She was only on the trek & Hospis had stepped in. They told us that with her medical problems & being only on a trek that she should just go to sleep & not wake up in about 4-5 days. Well, she proved everyone wrong she lived 12 days without dialysis.
At the time my husband had switched jobs (which I was happy about). So he was in the middle of getting all his training done. They had to send him up to Dallas. He was gone for a week. I believe with all my heart, that God allowed her to stay to make sure I would be OK when she passed. He made it home just in time to say his good-by's to her. (He got home Sat. she passed on Sun.)
I thought I was going to be a basket case yesterday, but I wasn't. I was OK! Even though it was nasty outside I was in good spirits & I am looking forward to Christmas. Even though we don't have much I know God will provide for us. I know we will be able to get the kids something for Christmas.
Dear Lord,
Please be with me as I grow to know you once more. I believe through You all things ARE possible!! I believe You will provide for my family & I. Aman
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may god wipe away your tears,i pray that he will comfort you and have favour upon your life,its sad to hear about your aunty passing away,be encouraged,our lives belong to the LORD,may god continue to be your provider,whatever the circumstances be faithful to god and you gonna reap goodness from him all the days of your life,god bless you
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