Holidays...

Well it's getting to be that time of year again. It'll be Thanksgiving in just a few weeks and I am missing my Grandma & Aunt so deeply! I find myself in deep thought at my desk at work, with tears flowing down my checks. They were such a HUGE part of my life growing up. For some reason I just can't get over them passing. How do I get there from her? It's not that I want to forget them, I just want it to stop hurting so bad! I think it's ecause my aunt passed away a few days before Christmas and my Grandfather passed away the after Christmas 9yrs ago. Or is it because my precious Grandmother passed away 6 months after my aunt. Or is it because my mom left my dad & I when I was just 9 months old and these two ladies helped raise me. I still have my dad with me (thank goodness)! And I am married with kids of my own, but I think I just miss their love, support, encourging words and our every day talks.

I used to think I came from a very tight family, but now I don't think that. We used to get together for every little thing and now it's just for the Holidays. I hardly get to see them, even though we live kinda close. I just can't get over they way they treated my aunt before she passed away. They used to make fun of her, put her down or even say she was faking things. This woman was like my mother. My cousins have a mom, I did not. How could they ignore her on that one Thanksgiving? How could they treat her so bad? She was so precious to me, my dad and my family! My kids will NEVER be the same again!